“When can I go and meet with God?” -Psalm 42:2b
“On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night.” -Psalm 63:6
“Who has the heart? With whom are our thoughts? Of whom do we love to converse? Who has our warmest affections and our best energies? If we are Christ’s, our thoughts are with Him, and our sweetest thoughts are of Him. All we have and are is consecrated to Him. We long to bear His image, breathe His spirit, do His will, and please Him in all things.” -Steps to Christ, Chapter 7
Do you love God? Do you live your Christian life because God attracts you?
This can happen. It does happen, often. I’ve met many people who are attracted to God.
Do you want to love God?
Take time as you read your Bible, going over the same passage again and again. Try to grasp every detail of the stories about Jesus. Imagine what it would be like if you were actually there.
Pray for a long time, by yourself, with a notebook. Whatever is weighing on you, try explaining it to God. Tell him every possible worst scenario, and tell him the best possible scenario. Get down to the bottom of it. What are you really afraid of? And then give it to God. Find something in the Bible that gives you confidence that God can take care of this. And I mean real confidence–not something that you think you should be confident about.
The only way to love God is to give him the chance to woo you. People don’t fall in love before the first date. So spend a lot of time with him. Read and re-read his letters, explain your problems to him, and celebrate with him every chance you get.
You can love God. He loves you, and that’s a great starting point.